April 2013
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“you deserve better”
haha just what am i supposed to take away from that; it felt like a challenge. moreover, i wasnt sure what to say in response. i’m awful
well its been awhile
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i notice that one has been getting a lot clingier to be lately, and i know that hes drawn to dominating personalities because hes, well, a doormat, and another is suddenly interested because i made a few shitty jokes and laugh really easily
and i dont understand because i am the most guarded piece of crap that most of my relationships are forged on aggressions...
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i really like community i. really like what they’ve done with jeff’s character he’s a stock arrogant egotistical reluctant leader that always gets his way but wow i just
he’s insufferable. he puts himself on a pedestal and flaunts it around for everyone to see, smearing on every surface in sight but he has these completely contradictory standards...
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[[MORE]]the lion king is playing on abc family right now and i cant listen to ‘this land’ or any reprise because i just keep getting that awful wrenching pressure in my chest and i especially can’t watch the scene where simba ascends it was the last song and scene we played in the disneyland recording studio last year haha why am i. putting this here
i guess the reason why the...
March 2013
20 posts
[[MORE]]haha i cannot. wait for spring break kayla is the perfect person to go on a road trip with i want to run around town barefoot and walk the beach vicariously and man itd be even greater if we went to newport again god i love it there but i love long beach too i
honestly i don’t care how it happens or who goes i just need to get out and breathe and remember that im alive
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[[MORE]]i think the best part of the trip to health sciences center was definitely!!!! when we saw some patients walking around the facility with the portable artificial hearts backpacks wow so cool so coo yea man maybe one day patients with artificial hearts be able to fully function completely independently outside of the institutions and an artificial heart may be an alternative to a transplant...
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[[MORE]]if i go into plu with my current ap scores i would already have at least 16 (hopefully 24 in may) credits taken care of, which is about a semester (and a half) of school out of the way
i could spend that year taking the heavy hitter classes like calc and physics at plu where it’s easier to get one on one interaction before i transfer to uw for my major, not to mention gen english...
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if i live at home and go to plu i have an extra 2000 from my annual scholarships/grants aka zero cost of attendance to pay out of pocket
[[MORE]]i’m glad emily’s my friend she’s someone i feel comfortable sitting down and talking to. i know that i can do that with ken and shay but emily’s concerns and my concerns are a little more in line and i just feel so much more on the same page as her.
haha i guess it’s just that when i’m with the twins they tend to really talk about their experiences and...
it is 8:56 am and i am eating a pastry
as dumb and stupid as it sounds i think the reason why i really like tamako market is because of the whole premise of the show
she’s hardly more than average. she’s a working class girl that knows what its like when things get kinda tough at home. she’s a positive person and she comes from a humble place that’s proud of what they...
i’m really glad i’m friends with nolan
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[[MORE]]this morning as i was getting ready i stopped and kind of laughed at the pile of makeup products and the like four flavors of skin whitening cream laid out in front of me it’s like picking what kind of face i want for any given moment and it just seems so arbitrary and pointless every day
what am i doing why. does this matter no one cares
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@jordan
im like full cambodian at least to the extent of my knowldege??but ive been told i dont really look it bc my complexion is a lot lighter than most cambodian people around here??regardless i cannot even. speak it.
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today was kinda nice and quiet. i spent a lot of time with emily, and then with nolan, and it was nice because i think emily and i are similar enough that we function well together and its nice spending time around someone youre comfortable with like nolan
(by comfortable i mean quietly singing some nights and do you hear the people sing constantly in ap lit because they were stuck in both our...
a year or two ago people used to say i spoke with a little bit of an accent, something you couldn’t really place your finger on but was still there. and that’s understandable, because i grew up in a nonenglish speaking household.
now, i cant even speak cambodian, but when i ask people if i currently speak with an accent, they look at me strangely and say not at all. i wonder if...
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[[MORE]]much like a lot of other people, the odds that i’ll ever go back to being a Total Active RPer are pretty much slim to none. it’s been a gradual decline for a while, and since it’s still hot and fresh i’m still totally in for pr, but the commitment is more of a Hey,I have Free Time and Creative Capacity to Spare so Why Not kind of deal as opposed to the whole shebang...
i really want to get my hands on a copy of on the road ahh it’s been on my to read list for a while but it has priority because i really like kerouac’s voice; it’s raw in a rusty kind of way like dust on unmarked wine bottles. there’s something about the beat generation i’m really fascinated with and i don’t know why i’m putting this here but i think it...
i might be getting the mole next to my nose removed…. hmm. my dad’s mother died at an old age, but she had the same mole, but it was much larger than mine is right now. i never met her, but apparently the similarity is unmistakable. since they lived in the countryside, she probably never received proper medical examinations, but it’s not unthinkable that it might have been...
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small bowl of rice and dried meat
a tangerine
egg and avocado on toast, hummus on toast, bell peppers and some macaroni and cheese
haha the pacing of my meals is pretty bad but i just dont have the???time and resources to eat throughout the day like i should (no thats just me being lazy) (better than eating crappy processed foods though)
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tomorrows meals!
breakfast: cucumber + veggie cream cheese half sandwich
lunch: hummus + bell pepper half sandwich
dinner: egg + avocado salad half sandwich!
snacks!!! i packed baby carrots, cheddar and babybel cheeses, celery and orange bell peppers, two tangerines and a pear, and some walnut brownies to pass around (the normal kind e_e)
last year’s trip to cwu was probably one of my...
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ok i am going to try to be consistent about this because there is literally no other point to this blog if i dontCommit (im so bad at commitments)
breakfast was good!half a serving of egg beaters in a flour tortilla and nfjgnk a bean dessert that phy made oops
lunch was a small container of pasta!i also had a few of emilys jos though oops nfgmkdf
dinner will probably be two pieces of chicken,...
February 2013
31 posts
oh god im suddenly nervous about going to central on friday i haven’t practiced my part and i barely know the lyrics and contest itself is in a week hhhH
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overhead extensions 25 rep
one handed overhead extensions 30 reps
shoulder flies 25 reps
kneeling crunch 30 rep
one arm standing crunch + leg raise 30 reps
one arm standing crunch + knee raise 30 reps
mountain climbers 50
arm curls 25 reps
i think ill jog later too but im not sure if ill be able to
i keep trying to use the 30 lb bands to be moderate instead of the 60s but they...
i remember a while ago nik advising me not to consume soy milk (and its also his bday today sigh i guess i should say hi e_e) and it made me remember reading an article in my dads mens health mag a couple years ago and sighs
theres numerous publications out there that divulge the adverse effects of soy esp concerning the isoflavones because they disrupt natural hormone function which is quite!a...
new goal: stop eating. girl scout. cookies.
wow i am so tired i want to collapse this is awful what do i do
i thought this cold would be a one day thing but i guess not??and i can’t figure out what i’ve done wrong i mean ive literally started eating healthier and working out consistently and getting sick is just so weird maybe it’s just a seasonal thing
but it’s awful having no energy because it just leaves an empty feeling you know were supposed to be feeling Good instead...
ive gotten into this habit like a lot of kids do where we just call teachers by their last names and drop the mr/ms/mrs stuff and they dont really seem to mind its kind of a familiarity thing
but now that i think about it i dont think i could ever do that with certain teachers. i dont think i could do that with my band director or chinese teacher or gov teacher or apush teacher, and the only...
i dont know if its because i wore a dress today but i had to skip hospital stuff today and i ended up sleeping with a fever and my throat still hurts i didnt get to exercise i still have a lot of homework and i cant breathe out my nose
but at least i got to eat my bean meatballs and pasta hmm
i want to
read more
coo.k better.
have more patience and curiousness
explore
Want to learn and apply myself
be less cynical haha
find a place on mercer island to just Be
also find a place in seattle to just Be
go on that damn road trip
drive along the coast
take night drives
have less fear
learn to play the accordion
improve level of political information
know what i believe why i...
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the fact that patrick from perks is so much like Patrick friend patrick down to even their name and it just made everything so much harder to sit through i usually dont have a problem with dramatic/emotional movies but suddenly everything got so much more personal and i
i want to Live
i actually went to ensemble rehearsal today!!!!at the expense of my face and hair. worth it???not really but i think i got back on johannas good side
i did resistance bands for half an hour today and there’s already a noticeable difference with my arm muscles hmmm i guess it’s easier to maintain muscle than to build it…. i really wish we had an elliptical that would be nice to...
i only ate once today xD i had to skip breakfast to get to school on time and also lunch because of the band trip and i should change that but tomorrow and thursday are probably a similar story
normally i skip breakfast because i go to sleep too late to wake up with enough time to even think about eating so ive been getting up like twenty minutes before i have to get out the door lately this is...
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i know a lot of people want to aim for healthier eating habits and stuff so!!!i know a few things but im not a resource though ngkfgf
one of the easiest things you can do is drink more water!!! you’ll be more hydrated and the water will make you feel fuller when you drink it before meals. drinking lots of water also promotes healthy skin (this can also be achieved by eating more...
